[ i read this and went to sleep. AHaa? Aymeric makes a face, then laughs. ]
'Twould be remiss of me to shy away when we're building camaraderie. [ Hm. ] It may sound silly, but I would want a partner who wouldn't feel ashamed to be seen with me. To be accepted as I am, origins and all.
[ . . . . ? buzen will blink at that, surprised. he tilts his head]
I can't imagine how anyone who would feel ashamed to be with you. You seem like a good man. But that doesn't make it silly, if it means something to you.
Can I ask what that means, Meric-san? Your... origins.
[he's so confused what the hell could aymeric's backstory be]
Mm... If it is something heavy, then we can lighten it up after - but now you have me worried. I'd feel worse about shying away from it, knowing that you'd like someone to stand with you despite it.
'Tis naught worth concern. The more I mull over it, the more childish it is... Times are different and with it comes change.
[ But he guesses he should give context. ]
The Holy See of Ishgard was once governed by the head of the church, the Archbishop, and of course men of the cloth pledge celibacy. Yet there was a rumor within and without of the Archbishop siring a bastard son. Oft when I was pursued in any romantic fashion, 'twould be in the shadows away from the eyes of the public. I never asked of their true intentions, but anyone can surmise one or two.
[buzen doesn't understand much about the ways that humans manage their families - but talk of bastard sons and lineage strikes familiarly enough that he thinks he understands the shape of the problem, if not the fine details.]
That's not fair to you, Meric-san. And you shouldn't have to call it something childish if it means something to you. We remember what sticks with us, don't we?
[ Oh to be a sonic sword. Aymeric would probably find it more comforting that Buzen doesn't completely understand. ]
I had thought it didn't mean aught to me anymore. In spite of my birth, I climbed the ranks and made a name for myself. 'Tis merely an embarrassing display to show to others. [ He crosses his arms, pensive. ] But I suppose your words ring true. Those experiences shaped my aspirations as well.
.... well, don't think you have to be embarrassed with me, at least. I'm glad you tell me, Meric-san. I feel like I understand you better.
[at the return question... buzen hums thoughtfully]
I don't know, really. I like all kinds of people, humans or otherwise. I guess...
[well. aymeric was pretty honest about something difficult, so buzen only thinks it's fair to share - ]
I'm a sword whose existence is uncertain. My comrades have tales of their feats, or famous masters. But I'm a little different. So... I guess I'd be happy to have a partner who remembers me, and makes me feel like I'm real.
'Tis not how I expected this arrangement to start and I bid condolences... Yet I do find the weight on my shoulders lighter. Thank you. For listening.
[ Likewise, he doesn't quite understand sword feelings... But he can kind of frame it in a way that he can. ]
We may have only met a number of times I can count on one hand, Buzen, but I have few doubts you'll be remembered by someone. I daresay you'll be remembered by more, my new friend. You've left a lasting impression on me, if that makes any difference.
I didn't expect this either, but I don't mind it if you don't. To be honest, it's nice to talk about these kinds of things with someone else. In our missions, we don't really get to interact with other people in this much depth.
But... I'm glad! You've left an impression on me too, Meric-san. I'll keep the memory of meeting you with me, wherever and whenever I go.
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Companionship building!
I've learned a lot about other people! So I thought it was working.
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I don't see why you can't use this event for that purpose.
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Then come, Meric-san, let's have a round. Even if we're not seeking lovers, I don't see why we can't build our bond as comrades.
[a glance for the door - ]
At least until the next opportunity to bolt comes up, and then I'll cover for you.
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Then to the thick of it. You may start.
[ SHOOT HIM A QUESTION ]
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Describe your ideal partner!
[is there gay elf lore here i'm so ffxiv blind but i've been told to expect it somewhere]
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'Twould be remiss of me to shy away when we're building camaraderie. [ Hm. ] It may sound silly, but I would want a partner who wouldn't feel ashamed to be seen with me. To be accepted as I am, origins and all.
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I can't imagine how anyone who would feel ashamed to be with you. You seem like a good man. But that doesn't make it silly, if it means something to you.
Can I ask what that means, Meric-san? Your... origins.
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[ Even if like... Everything is grey. ]
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[he's so confused what the hell could aymeric's backstory be]
Mm... If it is something heavy, then we can lighten it up after - but now you have me worried. I'd feel worse about shying away from it, knowing that you'd like someone to stand with you despite it.
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'Tis naught worth concern. The more I mull over it, the more childish it is... Times are different and with it comes change.
[ But he guesses he should give context. ]
The Holy See of Ishgard was once governed by the head of the church, the Archbishop, and of course men of the cloth pledge celibacy. Yet there was a rumor within and without of the Archbishop siring a bastard son. Oft when I was pursued in any romantic fashion, 'twould be in the shadows away from the eyes of the public. I never asked of their true intentions, but anyone can surmise one or two.
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Ah.... I see.
[buzen doesn't understand much about the ways that humans manage their families - but talk of bastard sons and lineage strikes familiarly enough that he thinks he understands the shape of the problem, if not the fine details.]
That's not fair to you, Meric-san. And you shouldn't have to call it something childish if it means something to you. We remember what sticks with us, don't we?
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I had thought it didn't mean aught to me anymore. In spite of my birth, I climbed the ranks and made a name for myself. 'Tis merely an embarrassing display to show to others. [ He crosses his arms, pensive. ] But I suppose your words ring true. Those experiences shaped my aspirations as well.
[ ... ]
What says you? How do you paint an ideal partner?
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[at the return question... buzen hums thoughtfully]
I don't know, really. I like all kinds of people, humans or otherwise. I guess...
[well. aymeric was pretty honest about something difficult, so buzen only thinks it's fair to share - ]
I'm a sword whose existence is uncertain. My comrades have tales of their feats, or famous masters. But I'm a little different. So... I guess I'd be happy to have a partner who remembers me, and makes me feel like I'm real.
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[ Likewise, he doesn't quite understand sword feelings... But he can kind of frame it in a way that he can. ]
We may have only met a number of times I can count on one hand, Buzen, but I have few doubts you'll be remembered by someone. I daresay you'll be remembered by more, my new friend. You've left a lasting impression on me, if that makes any difference.
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I didn't expect this either, but I don't mind it if you don't. To be honest, it's nice to talk about these kinds of things with someone else. In our missions, we don't really get to interact with other people in this much depth.
But... I'm glad! You've left an impression on me too, Meric-san. I'll keep the memory of meeting you with me, wherever and whenever I go.
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Then if you ever to wish to know others in depth, you may have the opportunity here until the tides change. Of course I'd be willing.
'Tis good to share and confide. Not only does it let us know of others, it reminds us of our beliefs, our struggles, and ultimately who we are.